Timothy Michael Crandall - Online Memorial Website

I will allways love you. Your Bro!!! For Life!!!!!

I am sorry to hear this news. I didn't know Timmy very well, but years ago when we hung out a few times he was so full of life and was definately crazy. He was very sweet and caring. I am so sorry for your loss and will keep your family in my prayers.

Rest in peace my friend, I will miss you. Good and Bad times are a part of life and the bad are always forgotten in time, but the good always remain and can be reflected on when called upon day or night. I will always remember our time shared growing up, you where the closest thing to a brother to me. Sorry you had to leave us so soon, but god has great plans for you. I will miss you, WE ALL WILL MISS YOU. Godspeed on your journey my friend, Godspeed.

Our thoughts & prayers are with you and your family at this time. Cherish the memories always. We are sorry for your loss.

Dear Jeanette & Terry, I am so sorry for your loss. You and your family are in my prayers and thoughts. I to have lost a loved one, my dearest hushand Tom passed away last year and was also laid out at Kaul's in Roseville.

Dear Timmy, I so sorry your time was short and i remember that beautiful smile the first time i meant you and how full of life you were. i remember alot of great times and i know that we lost someone so special but god needed his angel home and i know in my heart that you are in a better place. you will be miss so very much. rest in peace.

My Beautiful Cuzin You will always be your smile in my dreams that smile could block out the sun and at times when I was down it did for me..Thank you for being My friend as well as My Cuz I will remember all of the fun times we had in Florida and here at homeand they will be what i will look forward to when we hook up in the after life .. TE Amo' Timmy!!!! I will love and cherish the Sun you brought into My life forever...Rest in Peace with all your angels who you have now joined be free and crazy there too baby boy...you lived.La Vida Loca Timmy!Be free and live with Your angels!! Say Hello For me!!See Ya When I see Ya!!!!God Bless You My Sunshine!!!

WE ALL WILL MISS YOU DEARLY!! God bless you Timmy!!May God Bless you and keep you safe Aunt Nettie and Uncle Bug and also Uncle Terry ,Tessa and Taylor,Terry II and Jenniffer,..Our Thoughts and Prays go out to you in your time of Need and Healing .. We love you all if you need for anything Just say the word and we will be right there ..Love you all !!! The Wolcanseks

What to really say My friend....Now you can here my thoughts and the world can read my words.So allow me to say that you were a good friend ,good hearted person,strong in your beliefs. The love you told me that you have for your son also the love you told me you have for my daughter (your niece)Shyanne and how you said you wanted a daughter for yourself.We all Have been through some great and rough times that is how life is..And now you are fulfilling Gods greater plan. To come back and change the world!! I will be Waiting!! You will truly be missed...-Danny-

My condolences and prayers go out to Timmy's family. I'm so sorry for your loss. Oh Timmy...where to begin? We were an inseperable group of fearless and crazy kids growing up in Florida together. I know we gave your dad a run for his money, that's for sure! So many years of memories and fun! I was looking forward to seeing you on my trip down to Florida over New Years...guess I'll have to wait for God's plan for me to see you again. I will never forget all the wild, crazy, and fun times we had. They'll be cherished even more now...no regrets, remember!?! I'll think of you every time I drive across the Howard Frankland Bridge and everytime I see my new car I let you "break" in back in the day! I'm so very sorry you couldn't have stayed with us longer. You will be deeply missed, but definately never forgotten. I know I'll see you in my dreams, smilin' that big ol' smile with beautiful wings...you deserve them. You heart beats strong in heaven, my friend...forever. I know you've finally found peace...finally. All my love always....Anjie xoxo

Well bro i'm not sure on what to say...i know that u were always my best friend even when times were tough you always had my back i love u very much and i miss u with every beat of my heart...Looking in the mirrior and seein my face reflecting yours and wondering why?? I will always love u... Jenniffer

We'll miss you so much!

Sorry for your loss Crandall Family..I know he was a true Angel. He was a true friend to me and i have known him for 18 yrs now, he has taught me lots of stuff through out the years. And he is a Hero to I will See you when I am up in Heaven ...We wil have fun like we always did Here.. Love ya bro...Randy

Tim, I've known you for only a short portion of my life, but with that, I'm glad I was with someone that brought my mother to tears upon death, that alone is an inspiration to me.. I'm glad you and everyone had such a good connection, for I only wish I could have known you a lot longer throughout the years of my life. Tim, I'm happy that I met you.. If not, I don't know where that portion of my life would be.. I Love You Tim, have a great afterlife, for we all miss you, and have always supported you.

My Dearest Nephew Timmy, I will always remember & treasure our SPECIAL moments together!! You will always be in our hearts & your smile will ALWAYS be REMEMBERED!! We love & miss you & may you rest in peace! May Gods angels be with you & protect you always!! Love, Uncle John, Aunt Cathy & Nicole

My prayers to the family during this time of loss. Many memories come to mind that will always be cherished, but none more than his laugh ... no other will duplicate the happiness you felt when Tim laughed because he was happy! Although his time was brief with us, his eternal life will always be shared through the joy he brought into so many others. And as he appears in our hearts, may his smile, character and laughter be the everlasting effect he leaves behind. Love you man!! may God allow you to rest now in peace and provide your soul with everlasting love!

I'll never forget the way I met Tim! We met on a bus on the way back from Florida. I had never seen a picture of him or anything and we started talking and soon I just knew who he was. I asked him if his name was Tim and he looked like he saw a ghost haha. From then on we have always held a special bond. I will miss you very much! My heart goes out to the entire family. I love you all very much.

I am so sorry for your loss. Timmy my heart is breaking i don't even know where to begin words can not come near close to explain the pain I feel over losing you we have been such a part of each others lives for over 20 yrs that it's hard to picture my days here without you. I will always cherish every moment I was blessed to have with you good and bad and i am grateful for our last words to each other, I have only one regret and that is our time here together was cut so short I will love you to the end of my days and feel some comfort in knowing you are in a better place with no pain and that someday we will be together again

Dear Jeanette and Family ... Our deepest sympathy on your loss. Losing those we love is one of the most difficult tasks we are forced to face. There never seems to have been enough time ... a million things we wish we could have said and done. God's plan for Tim came into play at this time. Though it is surely difficult to grasp for his loved ones who are left behind ... you must believe he is in a better place. In absolute, ideal peace, free of all pain and any struggles he dealt with during his short time here. Love never dies ... not Tim's or yours. Once again ... our deepest sympathy. You are in our thoughts and prayers. Dan & Barb Thompson (Pingitore/Chubrick)

Terry, Our thoughts are with you and your family. Our prayers are with Tim. The weather prohibits us from going to Detroit in the next few days. We have a forecast of almost two feet of snow between Thursday night and Saturday. Dan and Bev

Timmy, We should have done that fishing trip but you sure like to work and you were good at it..for sure. Time is not supposed to take someone as young as you and for me this news is so unexpected and it saddens me. God bless you and your family that will miss you. I pray your lat days here were joyous and rewarding. Later dude...see you in heaven

Timmy, We should have done that fishing trip but you sure like to work and you were good at it..for sure. Time is not supposed to take someone as young as you and for me this news is so unexpected and it saddens me. God bless you and your family that will miss you. I pray your lat days here were joyous and rewarding. Later dude...see you in heaven

As a Mother, we love of our children equally, but they each hold a special piece of our heart, although we love them equally; each of them have their own unique footprint in our heart .. today a piece of my heart broke... then took on another shape.and filled my heart with joy. knowing that my beautiful boy is in heaven and in pain no more.. no more heart medication, no more heart catherizations, or heart biopsy's. For those of you who didn't know, Tim had a very enlarged heart, and his heart as he told me felt like someone was squeezing it and the medication he took help a lot, but left him feeling sooo tired... but he adjusted. The doctors put a pacemaker difibulater as a temporary measure until he could get his surgery at the Mayo Clinic in Minnesota.. During his recovery, he spent time at our cottage.. resting, watching wrestling and hockey with Uncle Ed... and Grandma Red was making sure his tummy was full. He relearned that the "little" things in life were more important than designer jeans. We sat on the front porch on the swing and watched the hummingbirds and golden finches feed at the feeders ..we watched the sunsets at the beach.. and be-bopped to Kid Rocks Rock and Roll Jesus CD. singing Sweet Home Alabama All Summer Long.. we had long talks and walks, rode bikes and watched the stars above on clear summer nights at the campfire. He played horseshoe's with Devan and Angelina, and pigged out on ice cream with Shyanne. The last movie we watched together was " The bucket list"... and I believe that Tim's bucket list was filled As much as I did not like my son going through this pain, somehow IT gave us this special summer together to which is now this New shape in my heart and I am eternally grateful for that. He taught me so much this past summer that words could never express. Be gentle with your children.. listen with clean ears... know that they are all wired differently... they all do not cross their "T's" or dot their "I's" and most of all they are not perfect. ..do not judge by their imperfections, do not judge them at all... we are not perfect... Timmy was not perfect... but he is the sunshine of my heart. Now.let me tell you about my Timmy.. through his heart ..and in words through a poem he gave to me one Mothers Day of 1995... which he told me that explained what a mothers influence did for him... Mom: My definition of you cannot be defined: the surface can only be touched by words I say to you, because my feelings are too deep to be grasped by the human tongue. Only my heart feels what my words have not the ability to capture. I pledge those feelings to you. in what is known as a "friendship". A pledge that vows truth, loyalty, and above all, LOVE. I will not say that you alone have made me feel these emotions- together, we brought them to life. It was only you that created the desire deep within me. You have grown in me, without you I could not exist. I may survive when distance divides us, but only because I know you await my return. Being apart from you is a strain on my feelings, but the future reunion fulfills what my mind can only begin to imagine. Though I surround you with my friendship, you will never completely understand it. You can only capture my actions, not the meaning hidden far behind them. So when I tell you, "I Love You": you will hear and feel you own version of its meaning-not mine. You will have no true knowledge of the strength that enforces those words. They are emotions stringing out from the unlocked treasures buried deep within my soul. They are an unmastered gift meant only for those to whom it is being presented... a gift to you, Mom, from me to you: beyond anyone else's imagination. My definition of you, Mom, my friend, lies in the darkness of the unknown. I have only begun to seek its full meaning. Perhaps I will never find it , but with you by my side, I have learned to be grateful for its existence.... If we can touch each and every one of our children's souls like that .. that is what being a Mom is all about!

DEAR TIMMYS MOM AND FAMILY, I HAVE KNOWN TIMMY FOR ABOUT TWENTY YEARS NOW AND REMEMBER HOW ALL THE BOYS CAME TO MY HOUSE AND HOW SOME NEVER LEFT FOR AWHILE, HE WAS ALWAYS WELCOMED AND I THOUGHT THEN AND NOW WHAT A GREAT AND SPECIAL BOY AND THEN MAN HE WAS, YOU ARE RIGHT NO ONE OF US IS WITHOUT FLAWS BUT I SEEM TO REMEMBER ONLY THE GOOD THINGS. RECENTLY TIMMY CAME INTO MY LIFE AGAIN HERE IN FLORIDA, VISITING MY DAUGHTER AND GRANDDAUGHTER, STAYING WITH THEM FOR AN EXTENDED VISIT. THE FIRST TIME I SAW HIM I SAID WELL YOUR STILL AS HANDSOME AS EVER. HE WAS NOT AS HAPPY WITH HIS APPEAENCE AS I, BUT HE LOOKED WONDERFUL . I HADN'T SEEN MY JODI SMILE AT SOMEONE LIKE THAT IN A VERY LONG TIME. SHE REALLY HAD MISSED HIM AND WAS GLAD HE WAS HERE. IT WASN'T LONG AFTER THAT MY GRANDDAUGHTER GABRIELLE BONDED WITH HIM AGAIN SO EASILY, HE HAD THAT EFFECT ON YOU. I CANNOT BEGIN TO TELL YOU ALL OF THE EVENTS THAT TOOK PLACE THE 3 MONTHS THAT FOLLOWED UNTIL THAT TERRIBLE DAY HE WAS GONE. MY HEART BREAKS FOR EVEN THE SMALLEST OF THOUGHTS THAT HIS MOM MUST BE GOING THROUGH AND SEEING THE PAIN MY DAUGHTER IS EXPERIENCING AND WHEN HER AND I HAD TO TELL MY GABRIELLE THAT HER BELOVED TIMMY WAS GONE, I WAS NOT PREPARED FOR HER REACTION, SHE IS ONLY TEN YEARS OLD AND THE PAIN AND EMOTION THAT POURED OUT OF HER WILL FOREVER BE IN MY MEMORY. I AM SORRY TO GO ON AND ON BUT ALL THIS MUST BE TOLD, BEAUSE THIS IS THE EFFECT TIMMY HAD ON US. MY REGRET IS THAT I DID NOT GET A LAST CONVERSATION WITH HIM, SO I WILL HAVE TO RELEY ON ALL THE PREVIOUS ONES WITH HIM WHICH WERE PLENTY. HOPEFULLY HE KNEW HOW I FELT AND DID NOT DOUBT HOW I FELT ABOUT HIM AS A PERSON, BUT I WAS NOT AS UNDERSTANDING AS I SHOULD HAVE BEEN AND THAT IS SOMETHING I WILL NOW HAVE TO LIVE WITH THE REST OF MY LIFE, AND HOPE I WILL BE FORGIVEN. AS A MOM I WAS JUST TRYING TO THINK OF MY DAUGHTER. AS A SOCIAL WORKER I DEAL WITH DEATH EVERYDAY, BUT I CAN TELL YOU THIS, YOU NEVER GET USE TO IT, BUT THE DEATH OF SOMEONE LIKE TIMMY IS VERY DIFFERENT FOR ME AND LIKE EVERYONE ELSE DEATH IS FINAL, AND WE ALL WANT ONE MORE CHANCE TO SAY SOMETHING TO THAT PERSON OR JUST A LAST VISIT, IT IS SO VERY HARD TO ACCEPT, BUT TIME WILL HEAL US AND KNOWING THAT TIMMY WAS IN BOTH PHYSICAL AND EMOTIONAL PAIN, I AM GLAD HE NOW IS AT PEACE, BUT LOVED HE WAS AND MISSED HE WILL BE, FORGOTTEN NEVER. LOVE GLORIA

Dear Jeannette and Family: I was very saddened to hear the news of Tim's passing. I still remember the young boy I played with during my childhood and the fun we had down in Florida. As I sit here and read these heartfelt entries about how Tim touched so many lives I now regret that I never knew him as a man as I know my siblings do too. Even though it has been many years since we have gathered together our thoughts and prayers are with you at this time.

I would like to send my condolences to the family and friends of Tim. I didn't know Tim very well, but I do know he was loved and liked by many people. Again I am truly sorry for your loss. Hugs and prayers go out to all of you.

This letter you will read below was written by Shyanne who is Timmy's 7 year old niece. Shyanne and Uncle Timmy had a special bond.. Shyanne always told Uncle Timmy that he was her Favorite Uncle Timmy... and everyone Shyanne was close to was her favorite. here is her letter that she wrote in school yesterday in her words: "I love you Timmy for all your help because I love you. I was crying because I miss you because you are My Timmy. I still miss you because you are my favorite Timmy. I love you because I love miss you because I love you I love you. You are my favorite Timmy. I love you I love you Timmy you are my Timmy. I love you. You are my Timmy. Timmy I miss you. I love you miss you. You are my Timmy. You died on Sunday. Why did you die on Sunday? because my heart breaks."

Tim is not gone, he is simply saving your seat in heaven. He is with you in spirit as you have seen and no doubt will see again. Although his physical passing is a burden no mother's heart should have to bear, take solace in the fact that he no longer suffers and is now your guardian angel, who can watch over you and be by your side as perhaps he was not able to before. You and your family have my support and prayers always. Jen C.

Timmy, You were the light in my world for a long time. Even though we went our seperate ways, we both know it was for the best. Your a amazing person who did not deserve this. But now you are safe and watching over your family. Who we know you loved so much. I will prey for your family in this time of need and you will always have a place in my heart. Til we meet again......

It's been over a month and I just miss you so much Timmy... I love you!

Ok man I can't forget the night (on one of the trips to florida lol) uncle bug decided after we repetedly bugged him and aunt nettie saying it was too late go with us all us kids to play soccer in the field by the house remeber i kicked the ball and you and uncle bug went after it and you stopped and he kept going and for a minute i was watching and thinking he gave that sissy lol.. his dad got him lol.. and then uncle bug disappeared and i was scared for another minute but you started laughing your butt off so hard and we were all still running to figure out where he went and then we got there your hand was reaching out to him and he was in the dang ditch covered in mud we laughed so hard all the way home and we were all cover in mud it ghad rained that night too .. that was for the day the happiest i had seen all of us in i=one place for a while and that gives me comfort in knowing that we had a blast while allgrowing up together no matter how much time goes by we still everytime we got together after that we still brought that day up and i still have the vivid pictures etched in my head .. ohhh and when we got home the parents were mad but we then laughed so hard telling the story they forgot about being mad and uncle bug was a sopping messs lolllll.. aunt nettie i thought you could use a laugh... and anyone else that remember the talk or the action of that night i will never forget you Timmy......

Ya that was a GREAT time....playing soccer at night even when we couldnt see the ball, then uncle doug takin that dive into the ditch on the side of the field.....lol...good times.....Or here is a good time, when all of us from the neighborhood where playing a game up here in the snow called "bumper sledding/skiing" and he shoke his head and said you guys are crazy up here and wanted no part of it(he was the smart one)...as i got my glove stuck and dragged down the block i saw SUPERTIMMY jump into action and grab my feet and we both went for a little ride till my glove came off...covered in snow, feeling like idiots we just laughed our butts off. i never did find that glove.

Or the time i had my show car (Red neon) and i smashed the front end days before i was suppose to show it at autorama for my first car show ever. He pulled some strings got my bumper fixed/painted, then he put more effort into detailing that paint on that car than he would have on a ferrari.....needless to say he did such a great job on that car i took 2nd place and got a trophy at AUTORAMA! with a $199 Maacco paint job.....only he could buff a ____ into a showcar, always took his work serious, the work he truely enjoyed.

Even though timmy had his hard shell, YOU ALL know he was always there for any one of us day or night, to help out with any person, place, or thing...We are ALL a better person to have known and to have spent time with him... he taught us cousins that family love is unconditional and we all need to remember and keep that close to our hearts........your journey did not go unnoticed my friend, i will always remember the lessons you have taught me over the years. And i will always be by your side. "Supertimmy and Big E" the unstoppable force.....

Hello Timmy: It's mom, I just wanted to tell you that I love you and miss you so much! I talked to Kelly yesterday and she told me that she and her sister had a dream about you and that we were all in it. In the dream your spirit was talking to us and you told us that you were sorry and that you loved us... and we heard you! I love you... each day gets harder knowing that I will not see you "cheesy smile" your voice, your smell, your hugs, your unique "laugh" just not seeing you is more that I can bear at times, but knowing you are safe with God brings me some peace. Sleep tight tonight and I will talk to you again tomorrow. Love Mom

Hello Timmy.. its mom again I just wanted to say again that I love and miss you so much, my heart is breaking each day without you. I am trying my best and I need you at my side to help me get through this. I know that you are sleeping well in heaven as you could not here... I will talk to you again tonight before I go to sleep... Love, Mommy xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Hey bro, it’s been awhile since we talked. I wanted to say I miss you very much.. Mom is having a very difficult time as expected. Just know that you will always be in my memories.. At least you can say the weather is good where you are. All it does here is snow. Can’t wait till the snow melts and able to go for a ride on my bike. I know it doesn’t compare to your wings but a will settle for second best. Maybe we can go for a ride together this summer you with your wings and me on my bike.. Till next time Your Bro!!!

Hey Timmy, It's your cousin Jennie (with an ie). This is the first time talking to you on this message board. I talked to you at your funeral asking you to help Eric get through things & then I talked to you again at my brothers funeral. For whatever reason these message boards are very comforting but on the same hand I feel like an idiot typing out my feelings for the world to see, though it is easier than actually saying things out loud. Today is a sad day for me. Though I have to laugh when I picture you & my brother up there, wondering what kind of comotion is going on with the two of you together!!! I had a dream last night about Eric walking down a road. Just a plain dirt road with a beautiful blue sky & nothing around for as far as the eye can see. You were there on one side of Eric & Joe on the other. That's it - that was the entire dream. It was so very real, life like & peaceful that I could hear the birds chirping even though I was not in the dream. This is just what I was seeing. I'm not sure of the meaning just yet but I wanted to share this. My dream makes me want to say "Thanks for listening Timmy"! Love ya! your cousin ~Jennie

Dear son, As I struggled to learn how to be a father to you......and you struggled to learn how to be a son to me.....I always felt a strong bond with you. I can't think of anyone that has come through my life in my 48 years on this earth that can bring me to extreme laughter....tears and anger in a 24 hour period..........I miss you dearly. In closing Timmy I will quote the lyrics of a song (which shoudn't suprise you!)........Say it loud,say it clear....you can listen as well as you hear. It's to late when we die....to admit we don't see eye to eye. I love you Timmy..........Dad.

Hello Timmy: It's mom again and I need to tell you that I love you and miss you to pieces. Each morning when I walk I feel you walking next to me and encouraging me to go a little further each day. I will stay healthy and strong for YOU and me too.. so that I can let Dylan know, when I am able to talk to Carrie, what a wonderful man you are and tell Dylan all about you, he needs to know his Daddy Tim and no one will ever fill your shoes. Shyanne misses you a whole bunch too. She sings your favorite song every night before she goes to bed and sings it in the morning on the way to school. She say's to me in the car "let's listen to Uncle Timmy's song". The other day I pointed up to the sky and told Shyanne to look at the moon which was just a "c" shaped crescent, and she told me that it was you smiling at us. I miss you like crazy Timmy... I am so lost without you in my life. I feel you at my side and I know that you are watching over me and Bink! I love you.... Love, Mom xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox

Hey timmy its ur pain in the rear sis..haha..anyways things are okay i talk to u every night and throught the day..i miss you very much i keep replayin the meesages on our answering machine just so that i can hear ur voice, shy play your rockin roll jeseus song for u and says this is my uncle timmys favorite song..she and mom are havin a hard time with you passin and me to..who an i gonna call when i need my back watched..hehe Timmy even though things between us has been good and some that were, your my big bother dont worry about me just watch over mom and shyanne..I LOVE YOU..i got the last word..haha he knows what i am talking about..love you so much

My dearest lifelong friend, Jeannette, Words cannot suffice to tell you how very sorry I was to learn of Tim's passing. I so wish I could have been at the funeral for you, and I am so grateful we finally got to speak yesterday. The saying goes that "time heals all wounds." Well, time does help to soften our pain, but we will always miss those whom we loved so intensly and will miss with so much longing. It seems some wounds will never completely heal, but I will pray for your comfort and peace of mind, and for Tim's soul as he goes to spend the rest of eternity in the home of our Father. I will also keep your whole family in my thoughts and prayers. I am adding you all to the prayer list at my church on Sunday. You know how to contact me if you ever need me or there is anything I can do for you--ever. Know that I love you and will always treasure your friendship and help you in any way that I can. God bless and keep you and your family. Love, Joyce

Hi Jeannette, I meant to leave you the link to my support forum if you (or anyone else) would like to visit. It is a forum in Delphi that I created in memory of my David, Doug, and my dad. It has lots of great stories and links and prayers, etc. for those who are grieving. It may help to share your feeling, remebrances, etc. with others who visit there. Tell others about Tim and his life. Whatever you like. Please visit when you are up to it and feel free to share if you want to. You may have to register, I don't know for sure if guests can post. Take care, and all my love, Joyce. Here is the link--you need to precede it with the ht tp: //: (forums.delphiforums.com/remembering1 (the filters wouldn't let me put it all together, but you need to leave no spaces in the address)

Jeannette, I am so sorry to hear about your son. You have my deepest sympathy. Maria

Dear Jeanette & Family, I hope one day you read this and know how my heart breaks for you. I lost my daughter Carrie to leukemia at the age of 31 three years ago. I know nothing I say will matter much right now except I know and share your grief. We are now raising our 6 year old grand daughter. Years have seperated us but if you ever, ever need a shoulder and an understanding ear I will always be just a phone call away. Christie(DeSavage) Goodney

Jeannette and family, I am very sorry for your loss. I just want to say, I will pray for your son that one day all of you will be together again.

So much left unsaid, I am still waiting to wake up but realize this is not a dream anymore, please take my lil brother under your wing and one day i will meet you both again to tell you what i couldnt here.....love you bro, and stay out of trouble up there...lol.

Who can ever understand the deep and abiding love of a mother for her child...You can, sadly, you can. May your deep suffering reflect your deep joy and love that you experienced with Timothy. Our joy and pain come from the same place and you knew and know how to love and love deeply. That you will feel the reward of your love here and now is my prayer for you. You are a joy to know and I consider it a privilege to walk this part of the journey with you. I am open to you teaching me the depth of a mother's love for her precious son. Sr. Ronnie

Hi Timmy.. it's Mom again I just wanted you to know that I think of you every day and there is not a day or minute that goes by that I don't think of you. Today I go to my grief counseling sessions and it seems to help me quite a bit. You know, since you have been gone "physically" my whole world has changed and my spiritually has changed with that. I know that you are with me in spirit. It is your beautiful presence, smile, sweetness, personality.. all of that is what I miss so terribly. I beleive that we are put on earth for the "physical". We are taught on earth all of the physical things, that is why we have a body...it is physical. but when we die... only the physical body dies... the spirit stays alive and only when we truly believe in our hearts... that is when we can see "through" our hearts the presence of those that have left this world to move on to the spiritual world. I must believe this... it is what help me get through each and every day. I read in a book where a mother lost one of her twin boys, and she says that someone told her that it must be a relief that she had a twin son so that she can see him, but she said that it was not true, it is the "presence" of the other son that is missed, not the body, it is all of the components that go into a persons character, the smile, sweetness, laughter, etc that is missed so terribly. Shyanne and I went up to the cottage this weekend, and it was a really nice weeked. The weather was great. Shyanne and I went outside, she rode her Barbie Jeep that you got for her and I walked beside her while she drove her Barbie Jeep. While we were strolling along, we looked up to the sky and it was as blue as blue could be, I pointed this out to Shyanne and said, "look how blue the sky is" and her response without hesitation was "Uncle Timmy painted it". Timmy, sometimes I think that you are speaking to me through her. She, just like you, would always say things that would just make my heart smile. I love you and miss you to pieces Timmy... I will see you tonight...I love you...Love, Mom xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox

Timmy I forgot to tell you this. Before I went up north last weeked, Grandma Red told me that Madison was going to be there as a surprise for Shyanne. So when I told Shyanne that I had a surprise for her up north, and I told her "guess who is going to be up north when we get there" her answer was "my Uncle Timmy." I did not expect her to say that, I expected her to say Madison, and again, she made my heart smile, just like you would. I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!! I MISS YOU!!!! XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO

Timmy, I read the memorials of you all the time and cry till I Can't cry anymore...No one knows not even Randy...Seeeee I told you He doesn't know everything there is to know about me Hahaha(inside JK) But for some odd dang reason you willed me to write to you so her dang you I am doing what you want me to do again lol.. God I miss the crap out of you ..I wake up days saying I should call Timmy and see if he wants to just hang today we can go joy riding all over like have done before but then I realize you will not be on the other end of the phone ..........God that sucks so bad ...Just realizing over and over again how I will not be able to do know more her with you on earth..Dude WTF !!! who will be able to know everything an don't judge me anymore and vice versa and who will know when you just need to pick up the phone and say I been thinking bout you KID....I am just so dang sad today.... But know I love you and will Miss you forever till we meet again.... I miss all the things we should have gotten to that we wanted to do and planned on doing but never found the time to .. Till Next Time Buddy!!!

Hi Timmy, It's mom. I just wanted you to know that I am always thinking of you and I wanted to let you know that Shyanne is getting an award today. It is an "optimist" award. Her teacher, Mrs. Hoover chose her. The award ceremony is being held at the Roseville Jr. High School Auditorium. Apparently, each teacher from each school in the Roseville district choses a student who they feel show optimistic behavior and then each of them with their teacher attends this ceremony and is awarded. Roseville has an optimist club that she now is a part of. I knew you would want to know. I know that you would be proud of her. Do you know that she even picked out her award dress for tonight. Well, honey I am going to sign off for now and we will "feel" you there tonight, so don't be late. I love you to pieces!!!!!!!!!!!!! Love, Mom XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOX

Hey Timmy, it's Mom... Easter is coming just around the corner and I will need your help to get through the day. It has been 4 months since I have heard your voice or seen your beautiful smile or "physically" felt your hugs... it's just so dang hard. I try being strong and some days it works and other days it does not. Everything is just so surreal still. Shyanne is the only one mostly that keeps me going. She has a way of letting me know that you are still here, bless her little heart. I spoke to Kelly a while ago and she checks in on me from time to time...I really appreciate that. She seems to understand where I am along with Eric and Jen. It seems that most people seem to avoid me and/or not want to talk to me about you because I think that they feel that they will upset me. Actually the opposite is true. I will cry and miss you every day until I die, death is so misunderstood. If I know one thing for sure, the only person besides me that could love you like I do is God. Other than myself, God is the only one that I trust to care and do the best for you. My son, you are in good hands... I will talk to you later, love Mom XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO

Hello Timmy, it's mom, I just wanted to let you know that I think about you every day and I miss you to pieces. It's been 5 months since you have been gone to heaven and it is the longest 5 months of my life. I love you! I will write again to you. I just needed to let you know that I am always always thinking of you! Please send some of your strength to your sister, she really needs it. Maybe all of the angels and saints with you can help guide her and pray for her. She really needs some guidance and I seem not able to be of help to her. Do your best sweetheart. I will write you later. Love, MOM XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO

Hey there TIMMY.... You were standing over my bed last Tues. and you scared the crap ot of me til you said " I love you and it will be ok" How did you know I was having a bad week?? I don't know but THANK YOU!!! ONce again you were there when I needed you most.. I have been clean since March 21, 2008 and I honestly beleive in my heart it has a lot to do with you.. I will Always love you and I prey for your sis and Family every night..... Til we meet again..... TT

Hello Timmy: As I was cleaning my closets and dresser drawers, I found a card in the drawer, it was face down, as I picked it up to my sweet surprise it was a Mother's day card and it was from you. As many times as I have cleaned out that drawer I don't believe that I ever saw it there before. There is a saying of "pennies from heaven" well this is my Mother's Day present from you, from heaven. The words that you wrote in there were so heartwarming and beautiful and I will treasure it for the rest of my life. I am sure that this was a card that you gave me in the past, but I believe that you put it there to remind me that you are still with me. They say that God works in mysterious ways, well, it looks like the Lord helped you get that card there for me. Thank you sweetie! I love you and miss you to pieces. I will write again soon. Love MOM XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOX